Worse dream

Last 2 days I got MC due to eyes infection. Actually the doctor only gave me 1 day MC, I requested him for another day to rest - succeed!!

On tuesday morning *left eye slightly pain alrdy* I still insisted to wear contact lens. After wearing I found that my left eye's quite uncomfortable so decided to took off both, but the right eye took me HOURS *seem to be* to take off. In the end my eyes became very red and had a shape pain. MC of course! I called those people who I needed to inform to and went to bed.

I had a worse of the worse dream!!

I dreamt that I return back to HOME. That day was a Sunday and I had planned to go out with Nicholas in the evening but my family wanted to had a sumptuous feast. I was unwillingly to tell them that I can't join however I did. Dad was angry and scolded me with those hurting words. I cried and cried, he ignored and wanted to chase me out again. This time all my sister and Mom stood on my side, Dad felt disappointed of them and wanted to leave. *Ermm... isit very confusing? Just bear with me awhile more*

At this time I realised that they needed him more than they needed me. I felt restless and useless. I cried because nobody likes me, nobody needs me, I'm nobody in this world and I intended to take my own life by jumping off a tall building...

At this time I woke up, tears kept rolling off my cheeks to my pillow. What a bad dream I had, I thought.
Tiglet came around 2+pm. I felt contented even thought he just came and slept. *he is wrking night shift nw so slp in day* Hmm... Everytime when I sick, I feel alone and wish to have someone to take care of me. Thanks Tiglet *muackz*